stories
seek with all my heart
October 29, 2019It’s my most favorite and I wear it quite often as a reminder-to do just that! Seek with all my heart! My story is not uncommon. Unfortunately we’re living in a time when addiction is rampant in communities all over the country. I was a single parent at 25 and joined an apprenticeship program in the building trades to try and give my daughter a good life. I was injured on the job in my third year. I broke my right foot in half below my pinky toe and had to be in a cast for 12 weeks and was not allowed to put any pressure on it. One day while trying to go down a flight of stairs I slipped and fell injuring my back. Having a double injury and in a great deal of pain my doctor prescribed a highly addictive opiate for the pain. I was naive! I had no clue what I was up against. I had zero defense. I trusted my doctor and that was a huge mistake. The next 10 years of my life I spent in and out of detoxes and drug and alcohol rehabs trying to tame the beast that had taken over my mind body and spirit. Many many visits to the ER due to overdose, sometimes I prayed I would just die. I was completely hopeless. Eventually I found my way into a twelve step program of recovery which was clearly not religious but spiritual in nature but at the heart of it a belief and trust in a higher power whom I choose to call God. I was taught that my success was completely dependent upon that higher power along with some honesty, open mindedness, and willingness to follow the lead of many before me. I must Seek Him everyday in order to stay sober! It is contingent on the enlargement of my spiritual life /my relationship with Him. I am happy to share my story, maybe I can bring hope to someone! I’m happy to report I have been clean and sober from all mood and mind altering substances for several years and my relationship with Him is outstanding! I can’t beieve I lived so long without. I wouldn’t trade it for anything. He’s my BFF👍