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run wild

September 3, 2019
I’ll start off with my story. At age 11 I was diagnosed from a rare neurological disease called Transverse Myelitis. I was an all star travel softball player turned into a paralyzed from the neck down girl with a very long journey that will never end. I can walk thankfully and love independently myself thankfully with months and months of hard work. I still have many issues, but I deal with them. What choice do I have. At 18 I was home when my dad died by suicide. I saw him dying not knowing that morning was the last time I would see him in this life. He had demons; a great amazing father, but he felt he could not hold on anymore. Just about two weeks from turning 24 I lost my mom...my rock...to suicide as well. She was one to never ever do something like this. She had remarried and was mentally pushed over the edge for a horrible minute one night. I was home again. I saw my dad and heard my mom die. The noise of a gun firing still sends shivers down my spine. I am 26 now and have been going to a psychologist and psychiatrist for months now. I live with depression, anxiety, and PTSD every single day and will for the rest of my life. I have a degree already, but I am going back to college to seek my psychology degree and use my real life story to help others. I like to write; I plan to write a book and get published one day. A raw personal book of what it is really like to go through terrible tragedies and Run Wild through the pain and suffering and use my unforgettable and tragic loss and pain for my purpose...my purpose to help others! You aren’t alone...never! This is what Zox means to me. It is not just a bracelet with a quote and design; it is much much more. It is a story that is much deeper. I am very very very empathetic and can feel so much of others vibes. I want to make a change for the better in the mental healthcare system. This is my story.