phases

January 20, 2020

We all go through phases in life. What a lot of people might not realize is, despite it being a phase, something we assume is we just pass through with nothing kept. We keep a small bit of every phase we go through, and give a small bit of ourselves away in turn. I went through a phase, after my emotionally abusive relationship and life changing surgery, where I tried to fill a hole in my life. I wasn’t sure what was missing, but I was going to feel whole again or die trying. I was in constant motion, I tried partying, drugs, excessive exercise, weird diets, therapy and then...I came across Zox. Everything I was doing up to then was just distracting me and spiraling me into an all consuming depression. It was part of my shopping craze when I bought my first strap, which was Phases. ‘Cute’ I thought, as I more often than not wore that strap like it was part of me. One morning when I woke up with the strap still on, I realized why I kept wearing it - in the back of my mind it reminded me that whatever I was feeling, dealing with, doing...it would pass, it was just a phase, just a chapter. I was starting to feel the hole in my life shrinking, and I began to slow down and realize that I could be ok. Everything I was doing was just a symptom of my current phase...and I could, I really could start to move into a newer and better one, with this knowledge. That was over a year ago. I’ve since been treated for my depression, gotten an adorable dog, excelled in my career and just have a better outlook on life. I don’t wear Phases anymore, but I keep it somewhere safe so I can always have it and see it. I gave my unnerving uncertainty away to that phase of my life, but came out with an awareness akin to « this too shall pass » (ha, I have that strap too, but that’s for another story) always remembering that you are never in a phase forever. Life Phases, just like those of the moon, are temporary and uniquely treasured.