just as i am

April 30, 2021

All my life, I was pressured to be something other than who I am. Bullied as a kid and teenager because I was always the nerdy one of the group, the "uncool" one...the outcast. It led to me changing everything about myself just to get the pain and hurtful words to stop. As an adult, I thought I found the solution in a relationship and eventual marriage to who I thought was the perfect person. I was wrong. I had to change every aspect of me...until I wasn't me anymore at all...just to make him happy. The day he told me he found someone else, that he wanted a divorce, was the day I realized...I would be better off without him. I found myself again. Just As I Am reminds me every day that I am good enough just the way that I am. I don't have to change myself to please anyone. I am perfect. And since I have realized this...I found my soulmate and love of my life, and he reminds me everyday that just me is good enough for just him. It took 10 years, being broken, a zox band, and the love of my life to realize...I love who I am...just as I am.